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grr.... he's crazy. he drives me absolutely out of my mind. so he decides to write his own little livejournal entry about our experience last night. apparently he doesnt think that he was in the wrong at all either. (oh yeah, if you want to check out his side of the story his sn is tmacontenors) this morning, of course i called him because he is more stubborn. and i try to start a nice, calm conversation to figure out what his feelings were and why he was so mad. well, he still doesnt think he's wrong and doesnt want to hear what i have to say. so i finally got him to sort of understand why i did the things i did, but we still both completely disagree with each other. at this point we have agreed to disagree.
so- today was okay. i woke up and call tmac, then clean most of my room out, and then took a shower and went with tmac and terrica to the tattoo parlor for terrica to get her tattoo. she got her name on her back, it's cute but i wouldnt have gotten it. anyway... tmac and i got along better today, but it seems like he tries to irritate me. right now i am going to try to be a good girlfriend and let things roll off my back, but if things get worse im gonna have to beat some ass. you better believe it buddy. so i hear mrs. mixon is going to be a sub for ms. rose for a few days. have fun with that yall. hehe :) oh, i talked to footlocker today and they told me that they were going to start me out at $6.50 an hour. what kind of bullshit is that? oh hell no.... that's only $.35 over minimum wage! there is no way that im working for that much, that's slavery right there. well, im way too sleepy to write anymore, so lata playas!
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[14 Mar 2005|09:52pm] |
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today wasnt the best of days. i did find out that i got a job at lady footlocker, that i start on thursday. the day started out okay when i woke up and did nothing until i had to go pick up my baby to go to work with me. after that tmac and i went by the mall and then back to his house. by that time, his parents came home and terrica asked us to go take her to get a tattoo. at the tattoo parlor termarcus looked at his sister and said "damn, youre fat." i could not believe what i was hearing. i thought to myself, what the hell? he thinks SHE is fat, what does he think of me? and then i started to think about what it felt like when my brother called me fat. i got so angry and upset i asked him what the hell he was thinking call his sister fat. he got mad that i cussed at him and told me that it was none of my buisness cause it was his sister and not to butt in. at that point i was so mad at him that i just told him to shut up and take me to my car when we were done there. so terrica didnt end up getting anything cause she had to have a notarized note from her parents so we ran some other errands during which i asked terrica if she even cared about her brother calling her that and she said no. so then i told termarcus not to worry about it cause she doesnt care, so i dont give a fuck either. on the way home, he blasted his radio, like he always does when he's mad and it started to hurt my ears cause he's got a seriously loud system. so i turned it down so he could hear me and asked, can you turn it down, it's really hurting my ears. he nodded his head like he was going to and then turned it up even louder. it made me want to cry right then and there. then when we got to his house i stood outside waiting for him to talk to me. terrica had to tell him that i was waiting outside or i dont think he wouldve even noticed. so he came over and said what? did you forget something? what do you need? again, i couldnt believe my ears that he was being like this. i asked him if he thought it was okay that he did that to me in the car and he immediately cut me off and proceeded to tell me how i was in the wrong first, so he felt the need to retaliate. i asked him not to cut me off, just to let me talk but he said that he already knew what i was going to say. i told him that he did not know what i was going to say and told him that what i was going to say was that i didnt mean to come down as hard on him as i did, but i just felt bad because my borther used to always call me that and it really hurt me. he then told me that that was my problem. excuse me for bothering him with my feelings and problems. next, i dont even remember what was said but he got up in my face and started yelling at putting his hands in my face. told him to stop getting in my face and putting his hands in my face and to step back and talk to me like a human being, so he put his hands behind his back and still leaned forward into my face to talk to me, so i said STOP! then he turned around and walked into his house, without saying anything else to me. i honestly dont think i was so wrong. can someone please let me know what they think?
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so i guess it's update time. i read everyone's recent entries today and i decided i really miss the friends i dont see anymore. of course, i dont have alot of free time lately either. my job situation kinda sucks right now. i only make $250 every two weeks, but i guess that's good for usually only working for 6 hrs. ive applied at lots of places in the mall and i have gone to 3 interviews, but no one seems to want me. grr... i really need to pay my credit card off, i've been trying to do that for about 3 months now and it's still maxed out. there just seems to be things that i need that i dont have the money for so i charge it, and then, yet again, my credit card gets maxed out again. i never have more than a $200 credit on that bitch. well, let me stop bitching because i have to tell you that im actually really excited right now. mom is out of town for the weekend and tmac and i have a date tonight :) i love dates. we dont go out that often anymore, because neither of us has any money. and so my money issue comes into play again. but im going to forget about it tonight cause im so excited about my date. yay. and the best part is that i get to wake up next to him tomorrow morning. he stayed over last night too cause his parents are out of town. it made my day so much better waking up close to him. boy oh boy am i inlove. it's kinda nice, to have so much to lose. well, he should be here by now so im gonna give him a call.
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[24 Jan 2005|12:45am] |
today was a bad day. not alot of good in the day. well, one good thing happened, but he just left. so i wake up with this hurtful feeling. about what i found out yesterday (what i wrote about). all day i just felt like shit... thinking and thinking about it. not understanding what i did wrong, or why this happened. i felt like i was on the verge of crying all day. then my mom comes to me and tell me that my family is having some real problems. oh, and that we are going to be broke for a good while, so i need to start paying for my own stuff pretty soon. already feeling like crap, this made my day ten times worse. then one of my good friends calls me bauling.... i finally understood that she was trying to tell me that she was getting a divorce, her worst nightmare. all of the sudden, my day didnt feel so bad. the one person who she loved and depended on was leaving her. this was the only thing going wonderful in my life(the exact thing that had crush her life so quickly). i went over to comfort her and it turns out that her husband was just mad and didnt mean it.
sweetheart, you are the only thing that i feel like i can completely trust in right now. thank you for being there when i need you. i love you more than you will ever know.
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| you think you have friends...... |
[23 Jan 2005|12:58pm] |
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well, it seems things have become uncovered. recently, i just found out why a few of my best friends dont want to hang out with me anymore. well, i guess i found out why, it doesnt really make any sense. i found out why THEY said they didnt want to hang out with me anymore. well, she. she told someone and someone told me. i never understood why we didnt ever hang out or even talk anymore. i figured it was because we had different schedules, and they were still in high school and were really busy. i used to call her and ask what her plans were and see if she wanted to do something. she always told me she was tired or busy, but soon i found out that she just didnt want to be around me anymore. i even went up to the school and saw her and asked her if she wanted to hang out and she lied to my face and told me she was going to go home to go to sleep. then, she turned around and told someone close to me that she just didnt want to hang out with me. man does that hurt. one of my best friends, lying to me, just cause she didnt want hang around me anymore. the least you could do is be honest to me. it isnt the best idea to tell someone close to me about things you wouldnt want me to know. i assume she didnt want me to know because she didnt tell me to my face. nothing hurts more than when you dont feel like you can trust one of your best friends. it just makes me so sad. i dont know what to do or say. the least your best friend could do is tell you she doesnt want to be your friend anymore. but she never could tell me how she felt, i dont know why. i guess she thought i would be mad at her. but little does she know that i respected her and would respect her decisions no matter what they were. i would never force anyone to do anything they didnt want to, and i didnt, how could i? especially someone i cared about. if she didnt want to do something, she could just tell me, i dont understand how i forced her to do anything. you dont do something unless you want to. it just hurts me. and what hurts me even more is that she couldnt talk to me, and tell me how she felt. they just suddenly stopped talking to me. both of my best friends. and without reason or explanation. at least i know the reason one of them stopped talking to me. i couldnt tell you why my other best friend stopped talking to me. when i call or see her i can just tell she doesnt want to talk to me. i just cant believe this, it makes me feel so alone.... when you think you are so close to your friends. i dont know, it just makes me really really sad. sad for things to end this way.
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well damn, it's been a long LONG time since ive written in this silly thing. it doesnt seem like i ever have any time though. guess i should update: well, tmac and i are back together and im completely inlove. for some reason he has changed into everything ive ever wanted. guess he realized what he lost when i was gone. everything is wonderful in my love life. he is definately the best thing that has ever happened to me. we spend everyday together (which is a huge difference from our first relationship). and the best thing about our relationship is that sarah pugh has finally gotten the point to leave him the hell alone. i guess me being there everytime she tried to go to his house wasnt enough. sopposedly she is moving (for the 400th time), for good. hopefully she stays. so.... ya, i am the happiest i've been in my whole life. i cant believe i got so lucky. i cant wait to be with him for many more years. so college is great. you can actually have a life and job outside of school. it really is wonderful. my first semester i got an A and 2 Bs. go me! this semester im taking 2 classes with my baby :) he makes me so happy, i cant help but smile when i think of him. anyway, life's going pretty good. the only thing that i would change is the situation that is going on with my family. since my uncle died, he left alot of debt to my family and now its all being put on gwen and causing many problems in the family. i dont know what to do besides try to keep in touch with ellen and the kids to keep them close. well, i need to go take shower, my hunny bunny is coming over pretty soon :) yay! ooooooh shit!!!! i forgot.... we are going on a cruise during spring break, and going to miami!! yay!! damn, i need to go to the tanning bed, badly! :)
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its been so long that i havent written that i feel like there is too much to catch up with. lets see..... our sixth months was last thursday. it was wonderful, we went out to eat and then went where we went on our first date, the beach. it was freezing and we ended up chillin in the car most of the time, but it was still wonderful. he really doesnt know how much i love him. i wish there was a way of hi knowing without telling him. so, we are doing great. he's been an angel for the last 2 weeks. he's been sweet, considerate, caring.... he touches me differently now. he treats me.... like he loves me. but im still not sure. i dont know if it's because he has problems talking to me about that kind of stuff or what, but i wish he would just tell me how he feels instead of leaving me hanging. ive been so happy recently though, he has made me even happier. things just keep getting better and i dont know how to deal. ive never loved someone before and it's kinda scary. its frightening to think that i could lose that. we gave each other things to work on and so yesterday i showed drastic improvement and expected him to do the same, but i was wrong. a few days ago, he said "to mi amor" (you're my love) to me and told me to figure it out. i knew what it meant after i asked my brother to translate, but told him that i didnt because i wanted to hear him say it to me. i begged him to tell me until yesterday when he finally got upset and told me and by then, he said it in an upset way and didnt sound like he meant it. i dont know, maybe that's part of his 'talking' problem. who knows.... so yesterday after he told me, he went home and i called him and he made me ask the question that i was going to ask when he was here. so i asked it, i asked "if im your love, does that mean you love me?" and he says "i'll have to get back to you on that one." i was suprised and scared at the same time and i asked him if he was serious and he said yes, so i hung up on him. i didnt know what else to do, i couldnt stay on the phone. so now what? what kind of response is "i'll have to get back to you on that one."????? i dont understand..... what do i do?
p.s. i feel like shit today
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[18 Mar 2004|09:32pm] |
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ah, well my spring break hasnt gone exactly how i had planned it to go. i wanted to do some hardcore partying, but turns out all my party friends were busy. i planned on going to tallahassee with kimmy but she never ended up telling me whether she was going or not. then i called her the other day to see if she and fatima wanted to go to the zoo as planned but i never got a call back. then i called her today to see what she was doing and she said she was going to Orlando. i figured we would at least hang out once this week but i guess kim is too busy for me. i called fatima too, she told me she would call back but never did.
so far this week ive only done one thing. i went to Wild Adventures with Melissa, June and Sarah. the theme park was a disappointment. i remembered it being so much better than that. but we stayed the night in Valdosta and went out to dinner the first night, which was fun. i spent way too much money for just going to Georgia for 2 days.
havent really seen my boy this week. i didnt get an invite over when his parents were out of town and havent made any effort to go see him. if he wants to see me, he will ask (which he never does). sometimes i feel like he doesnt even like me. he never tells me he does unless i ask, and he never just wants to see me (or he never tells me he does anyway). i dont know about him. he is just so wierd, and immature sometimes (and im sure he'd say the same about me). he just isnt normal in some respects, such as his statement made recently about not being able to spend an entire day with someone (no matter who it is, friend or girlfriend). now, how many of us hasnt spent an entire day with someone???? yeah... i thought everyone had too. he's got alot of growing up to do. and we dont speak the same language either. i say something to him and ask him to repeat it and he tells me something totally different. it crazy. i hope someday i find someone who speaks my language, bc it really creates a bunch of problems when you cannot communicate clearly. well, im sittin here waitin for a phone call. im busy tomorrow until about 8, so if you wanna hang out tomorrow night or during the weekend let me know! i would love to do something!!!! call me 7428655
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well, i should've known it. everytime he is sweet one day, he's an ass the next. yesterday tmac's parents went out of town, so automatically i thought that i was invited over (because that's the way it is when my mom goes out of town.) well i ended up calling him around 5 and asked him what his plans were for the night. he said he was playig football right now and that he would call back. never did, so i called him at around 7 and asked what his plans were again. he said he was at Jamals house and they were having dinner and he would call me when he was done. i was confused when he said that so i said, "let me get this straight, you want me to sit around and wait for your call to see if i can come over or not?" and he was like.... "no, you can go out." i said "oh, so you want me to go out and do something and then if you call me i should drop my plans and come over then?" he got upset and told me that i always to try to make him sound like a bad person. i got fed up so i just hung up and then he didnt call me before he went to bed, so that made me mad even more. i dont understand boys.... i never will.
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today was yet another wonderful day. i got up around 10, picked jenna (the coolest girl ever) up and went to school for about and hour. after that, i picked brenna up and we decided to do some laying out. by the time we got where we were going, it wasnt sunny anymore. but we did have fun sitting outside half naked (in baithing suits) and talking. we ended up cleaning paul's house. after doing that chore, brenna had a coupon for a free tanning session so the two of us went and got a wonderful tan. and the best thing is that we get two more (i plan on going again tomorrow). and that leaves me where i am now. i love my tan so far... i want to get it done regularly but im kinda worried about it messing up my skin. YES!! guess what tomorrow is guys??? FRIDAY!! ya know what that means? mom is going out of town!! yay!!! im so happy. i plan on spending alot of quality time with my boy. oh and my brother is going to MIAMI!! how much fun is that going to be? yeah, i know!
well, festival is tomorrow and i cant wait to get it over with. i hope we do well so we wont dissapoint ms rose. she deserves superiors for how hard she works at what she does. im trying to decided whether i should wear the most painful shoes in the world or not.... hmm... guess we'll see tomorrow! well im getting sleepy and i gotta run alot tomorrow in first mod, so i need to go to beddy by!
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[03 Mar 2004|11:29pm] |
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today was awesome! this morning fatima and kim came over at about 8 and we had a little party. then we went to the beach and had the best time. while i layed out, they searched for shells. i found a perfect sand dollar and then broke it. it was beautiful at the beach, the temperature was perfect and the sun was warm. we left the beach and went to taco bell and ate lunch then went to school for sixth mod. after class, i stopped by my boys house. we didnt really do anything, i just kinda sat there and watched him do whatever he was doing at the time. that's okay, i was still happy to see him, i always am. so anyways, the rest of the day was useless in every way, i did nothing. tomorrow i have to be at school for lunch and then i plan on laying out some more at paul's pool, then i have to clean his house. well im getting sleepy, so im gonna get some ZzzzZzs!
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well, today was great. this morning i woke up at my leisure, to a gorgeous day. i was so upset that i couldnt just blow school off and go to the beach. at school, i had to do alot of running for gym class, but my sore legs didnt put a damper on my day. after school we had band practice which thankfully went by quickly. after that, kim took care of some buisness with theo (for fatima kim, and my beach day tomorrow). when she was done, we met at taco bell, and of course my baby was there. i wasnt expecting to see him cause kim wanted to be gone by 430 and i know he usually gets there about that time, but it was a nice suprise. its always nice to see my favorite boy. i've been thinking... and i am thinking that i might be being too harsh towards him. i was talking with brenna as she was complaining about how my brother doesnt do exactly what she wants and then i told her that boys arent mind-readers. i realized that im not even taking my own advice, i expect my boyfriend to be a mind-reader too and its not fair to him. i like him for him. i dont want him to change for me, and i wont try to change him.
so anyways... i went to target to get a baithing suit, and found a really cute one, which made my day. so now im at home and ready for bed, but its only 8, maybe ill just go to sleep early... again.
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[24 Feb 2004|07:16am] |
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ya know what i dont understand? why do people read your journal if they dont like you? it just doesnt make sense, i dont know why they'd even be interested if they dont like you.
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well, today wasnt bad but it wasnt great. this morning i woke up at brenna's and came home and cleaned the house. then i called carissa and she came over and we hung out. i straightened her hair and it looked really good. i bet she cant wait until her mom gets a straightener. we had lots of fun today at dinner. we went to cruisers and stuffed our faces full, it was delicious as usual. then we went to her house and watched a movie. i learned how to get rid of a guy in 10 days, maybe i should try it out. whatcha think tmac? hmm.... anyways... yesterday was valentines day, and i didnt get a call from my boyfriend all day. i ended up talking to him the next morning and bitched him out. i told him that no matter what the situation, he shouldve found a way to call. he told me he didnt want to hear me bitch and hung up on me. our first real argument, it was awful and i never want to argue again, but im still upset about what he did to me. and even HE told me that i have reason to. but anyways... im sick of talking about it, and i cant wait for him to come home.
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| cleanliness is next to Godliness, though i hate it |
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yep, so im sitting here at my mom's office, now that i've finished cleaning the entire place. grr, oh how i hate cleaning of any sort, but im getting paid so i think i'll be alright. yesterday kim got her car, and i hung out with her and her dad and helped them fix some things on the car. it was fun, im a good dad-helper, especially since i knew where almost everything went. i think both kim and her dad were quite impressed, hehe.... that's what i aim for. so anyways... today was okay. i got to wake up late this morning, because of FCAT testing (goodness how i hate that too) i am so glad i passed it the first time i took it. got to school around third period and then skipped it, cause i had a project due b/c i hadnt finished it. during lunch, jamal wanted to go to out to taco bell with me so he yet again crawled into my trunk to avoid security. well, mom is telling me it's time to go, so i must obey. later!
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[09 Feb 2004|07:32am] |
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well well well, what have we here? did you guys know that my mom is crazy? yes, that's where i get it from! after friday night's lashings, she told me i could go hang out with him at his house on saturday night.i dont understand her in any way. ive come to the conclusion that she is utterly phsyco, and... atleast now i know where i get that little phsyco bone that we sometimes see in me. by the way, apologies to anyone who has ever seen that bone, i know not what i do. so anyways, my weekend wasnt anything to write home about... oh wait, i live at home... jking. yeah, friday i hung out with kim and got yelled at by mom, saturday i did nothing all day until i went over to tmac's and hung out. sunday was a normal sunday, sitting around the house doing random things to clean up. is it just my house or is sunday always a clean-up day? i single-handedly took down the entire christmas tree. (i know, i know... it's about time) then mom and i had dinner together and watched a movie. it was pleasant, kinda.
YAY! 3 more days until my vday date! though it is going to suck bc he wont be here on the actual valentine's day. this is the first time i have actually been excited about valentine's day though. i've never been with someone that i wanted to spend it with. see, he's changed my whole life. i bet you guys are soooo sick of hearing about my sappy love thoughts so i'll stop..... but he's so sweet... :) (i'll let ya know what he got me for vday)
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| the most dramatic day ever |
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so.. today started out fine, woke up, went to school and it was a normal friday. after school i had to go home and then go by the mall and then my aunts house. i told kim that i should be done by about 4 at the latest, so she came along for the ride. we ended up not even getting finished until about 5 or 6. damn this jacksonville traffic, i hate it! (meanwhile, i told mom that i was going to hang out with kimmy cause i didnt know whether me and tmac were going to do anything or not) well, after everything was done, i called my boy to see if i could go over there to see him, he agreed to my proposition and we decided that i should come over (well, i did anyways... he always says 'if you want' grr!) so then i call mom to see if i can go hang out over there and she says 'you arent going to 'hang out' at his house for 4 1/2 hours!' then she went off on her whole 'i wont except or approve you dating black people' speech. i cant understand her. she told me that i follow him around like a lost dog, and that i grovel at his feet. she asked why i was 'ditching kim to go see him' and i told her that kim and i didnt have any set plans, we just decided that if i didnt get a call, we should hang out tonight. well i ended up getting a call and kim was ok with that cause that was part of the plan. so then my mom tells me im disrespectful to my friends. then she continued to yell and scream about termarcus being disrespectful towards me because he didnt have any money to take me out, so i offered to go to his house to see him. she's just crazy, i dont know what to do about her. she totally bursted out on me today. i never thought she would actually get serious about the situation, i mean, she always disliked me dating black guys but i never thought she would get so upset about it. i think she is just worried about herself and her reputation. well fuck her and her bullshit that i only have to deal with for a few more months. i tried talking to her, it just doesnt work. she doesnt listen, she just makes excuses. i dont know why she didnt have a problem with the last black guy i dated. she told me i was ashamed to be with Termarcus, because i hadnt introduced him to my family. i dont know about anyone else, but i dont introduce my boyfriend to my entire family within only 3 months of dating. but ya know what? i want to introduce him to my family now. i care for him so much that i feel like i want my family to know how incredibly lucky i am. so after i finished crying to kim, for about an hour, i called him. God, how did i get so lucky? it's hard to describe, there arent words to match the feelings. immediately, he asked waht was wrong. i told him i couldnt talk about it cause i would start crying. he invited kim and me to the movies, so we went. i told him what happened at the movies. i apologized to him because i didnt mean to bring back the drama, cause i know his last relationship was real dramatic in the same way. he asked me to ask her what he should do to win her approval. i told him there was nothing he could do, and that it wasnt him, it was the color of his skin. it really hurt me to say that, but then i told him what i told her which was basically 'get over it!'. my mom doesnt know what she's doing because it made me feel closer to him when that happened. maybe that's why he was so close to sarah. i cant believe my mom is doing this. the only person i've ever really cared alot for she decides not to like. it figures that things would work out like this, it's just my luck. but im still so lucky, one negative deserves one positive i guess. lucky- the word means so much more just it's sounds. to many feelings to describe... not enough words.....
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ahhh yes... now i remember why i love him so much. he is so amazing, but he doesnt know it. how did i get so lucky girls? today i stayed home from school cause i wasnt feeling my best. i woke up at about 12pm and went to both the avenues and regency malls and walmart. i had to return one of TMACs presents, cause mama Mixon told me i definatley spent too much money, so did as mama said and returned the finishing touch to the entire gift. i really wanted him to have the entire thing, but i gotta be sane.... i got him 3 gifts that all go together, but i also spent about $230, which is a little too much as my peeps tell me. but whatever... i took something back, so we're good. i really hope he likes his present. i tried really hard so far to keep it a secret from him, even though he always figures his gifts out anyway! i care for him so much and i want him to know it. he's made plans for the thursday before vday (cause he wont be here on the 14th) and wants to suprise me. so so sweet :) i told him i wanted this ring, but he went to the jewelers and picked one out for me. we started talking about what i WOULDNT want in a ring and i said "i dont want any ring that is gold and has a heart on it" and he basically said oh shit, im going back to the mall tomorrow then. Hehe.... poor baby. so i think he got me the one i wanted, YAY! anyway.. he came over today and made me remember why i cant live without him. he ended up sneaking out of the house at about 8 when my aunt showed up unexpectedly. damn you aunt kathy, damn you!
well, tmac told me that today was sarah's last day at sandalwood and that she is sopposed to be moving to washington. i really wish she didnt hate me. i really miss her as a friend. it's wierd how we became so close so quickly and then were torn apart so much faster. i reaLly do miss her.....
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yeah.. last night i was at tmac's house and left a little late so i was in a hurry, so i sped home. well, i've come to the conclusion that driving fast in the rain isnt good. since i was going 50 and started hydroplaning and hit a curb and did a couple of 180s. it scared the hell out of me, but i didnt hit anything so im okay. i think i might have bent the axle on my car... or bent something at least, cause now my wheel shakes when i drive... oppsie daisy! oh well, i have my brother look at it. so today i woke up feeling like crap. ive actually felt like crap for the last couple of days. i dont know if it's what i've been eating or what, but i guess i'll just grin and bear it until the feeling goes away.
p.s. momma isnt gonna be home ALL NIGHT LONG! yeah!! party over here, party over there! jk mom!
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WELL... i just read fatima's most recent entry and i must say that i am outraged about the whole mrs. rose sayin fatima hangs out with people who dont seem like they would go to college and want her to have the same intensions. and since kim and i are the main people fatima hangs out with, that is a direct insult to both of us, who by the way, definatley plan on going to college. i seriously want to know who she was specifically talking about, because she damn sure wasnt talking about kim and i. anyways.... today was a fun day, it was a "mother-daughter bonding day". fun fun! we went on a ride with her harley group to middleburg and back and then we all bent bowling. i almost got the award for the worst bowling score! Go Me!! :) i suck, but i still have fun. it's all good. by the way, it was freezing! i had lots of clothes on, and i was still cold as nuts. i even bought some wool socks cause i was freezing my ass off. and that's where i am now. later, mom, aunt kathy and i are planning on going to my auntand grandma's house to visit my aunt before she goes out of town for a while. after that, i had thought about going over to tmac's house to see him, because i miss him. two times in one week, i might get so lucky....
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